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| Monday, June 21st, 2004 | | 10:10 am |
WOW
What Finding Nemo Character are You? brought to you by Quizillawell, im the same as paige..Dory! lol..yeah im a lil afraid of rejection...lately i havent felt comfortable saying much in my journal...i dunno what it is...me and jon are doing fantasticable..but his xgf sorta started stuff again, and i dont care if she sees this. he told me she cant break me and him up, and i hope we wont break up, i just need sum people here for me again, i love jon, and i cant loose him. people used to ask me what my greatest fear is. i would say death, dying in a car accident. but now, i only have one great fear. and thats loosing Jon Ryan...i care about him a lot and if i loose him i will crash, bye amber | | Saturday, June 19th, 2004 | | 11:17 am |
back from trip
well i just got back in from Atlanta! i didnt like it much...mostly b/c it kills me to be away from my boyfriend for more than a week, and i cant see him for another week now cuz hes on his missions trip, so 2 weeks apart, wow i dunno how ill make it! but ill be fine...im really tired. i got Jon a bouncy ball that lights up, a keychain from the coca cola museum and a lil other thing from stone mountain and imma get him sum cool boxers!! lol...but yea...thats all...peace!!! Amber  Which Legendary Actress are you? | | Tuesday, June 8th, 2004 | | 5:03 pm |
long time
its been a while! well im no longer single. I'm dating Jon~Ryan! he's so sweet..we started dating almost a week ago...im so glad i found him. his xgf was my friend tho. and she said she was fine with it and now shes all jealous. if she breaks me and him up ill cry. i care so much about him so far. He's in NC til Thursday tho!..i miss him so much. i love him i think..but i cant go too far! well i guess thats all for today, and pray for heathers mom! shes getting surgery i think tomorrow. love yall and leave sum comments so ill know u love me! lol amber | | Monday, May 31st, 2004 | | 10:21 am |
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| | Sunday, May 30th, 2004 | | 9:52 pm |
oooooooooooooo
OMG!! a lot has been happening! I finally went to nickies tuesday night! and we went swimming wednesday...i met Brandy! got sunburnt! she came over wednesday and spent the night after church! we had fun haha...She called her Xbf, and is wanting me and him to date. His name is Jon! goes to BC...he's absolutly awsome...we talked for hours. and right now hes in Hoover, Alabama . he went there for the Carolina Baseball tournament...man i miss him! hes just so sweet to me. I think we'll date. He's not a hunk, but i still like him, he's really sweet!!! i cant wait for him to get back. i miss him!!! man nickie just called me. @ 1:20 ...is she outta her mind?!!! lol but its cool! well kids, im goin to bed...and Christi im so happy u and jeremy are together again!! good luck when u go to see him...for 2 week!!! lol...luv ya gurl and YOU better leave me comments too!!!hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha anyone wanna go to the movies friday? let me know! im gettin a buncha friends to go to the movies over in irmo!!! well...love yall..bye kiddo...and off to bed with myself!!! love, Me | | Friday, May 21st, 2004 | | 9:59 am |
another survey...lol im bored!!
Survey: Would You Rather... 1) pierce your nose or tongue? neither preferably but if i HAD to choose...tongue...yuck tho!!! 2) be serious or be funny? funny...all the time! 3) drink whole or skim milk?im elergic to milk...lol Are You... 4) simple or complex? depends on my mood Do You Prefer... 5) flowers or angels: angels 6) grey or gray? i dunno.. 7) color or black-and-white photos?black and white i dunno why they just make things more interesting 8) lust or love? love 9) sunrise or sunset?sunset 10) M&Ms or Skittles?skittles 11) Rap*Techno or Rap*Rock?rock 12) staying up late or waking up early? staying up late 13) TV or radio? radio 15) eating apples or oranges?oranges Answer Truthfully... 16) Do you have a crush? yes i do 17) Who is it? cant tell...oh i forgot u said truthfully, well it starts with a T and ends up ony!...if ur that dumb ur hopeless..lol jk Do You Prefer... 18) being hot or cold? hot 19) tall members of the opposite sex? yeah, i dont usually prefer having a boyfriend who i have to look down on lol 20) sun or moon?moon 21) emeralds or rubies? i dunno 22) left or right? neither 23) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend?one best friend...like i have now! 24) sun or rain? rain 25) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? i cant have it...im elergic to milk and icecream is a milk product lol 26) boys or girls? boys..no im not a lezi!!! lol 27) green beans or carrots?both 28) low fat or fat free? fat free Miscellaneous... 29) What is your biggest fear in the world?dying suddenly 30) Kids or no kids? i want kids, but no time soon! 31) Cat or dog? dog 32) Half empty or half full? arent they the same thing?...to me they are! 33) Mustard or ketchup? ketchep..if it was a food..it'd be my favorite lol 34) Hard cover books or soft cover books? soft | | 9:39 am |
heres a survey...i was bored..lol
name:Amber birthday:September 8th fav song:The Reason by Hoobastank! ur latest crush:Chad*sigh* ur current crush:Tony!! he's so adorable... ur favorite moments: when im alone and just thinking and at church ur role model.why:Sara at church..she influences me to get closer to God! ur favorite person to be around: Stephanie who is ur stupidest friend: if it was enemy..it would be jeff...but friend? ditsiest count?Heather lol what is ur fav class: biology i think... what are u best at: being me myself and I!! can u keep a secret: of course! more than ever, im so sacred. do u have a secret that NO ONE knos? not that i know of if u do what is it? i dont who would u tell this secret too? dont have it are u hidin sumthin from anyone in particular? nope what is ur religion? christian !! the Lord is my hero! who gives u the most encouragment? my youth pastor and matt what do u wanna do when u grow up? something in the medical feild..lots of schooling!! why? i love helping people who is ur newest friend? Jamie what are u most proud off? me becoming so close to God what is the saddest movie uve ever seen? a walk to remember what is ur most embarrasing moment: i liked Chad for a long time, and i didnt know he knew that, my friend told him outloud infront of lots of people and he said"i know i like her too" and i about died! what are u doing right now? doing this survey,talking to pple on yahoo,and aim and talking to josh on the phone. what are u eating? a taco lol drinkin? diet coke do u have any pets? yea, a hamster lol when do u get outta school? today was my last day..thank God! who do u hate? no one at all! i love everyone! have u ever had a fight? many who is ur favorite actor? theres so many i dont even know! actress? same as above who do u trust the most? Heather Anne ~now add a question of ur own!~ what do u hate the most? i dont hate anyone what is ur fav subject? biology i guess which of the 2 sports would u rather watch, hockey or baseball:if it were live...baseball is fun! who is the funniest person u kno? Chad, definatly! THE END!!! now copy and paste and erase my answers and make your own!!! enjoy! | | Thursday, May 20th, 2004 | | 9:24 am |
its been so long since i wrote...
hey y'all! it has been a long time since i wrote a journal entry so i figured id write today. im in commercial design , just got done with my exam! today is the last day of school. in a way im glad and happy, but in a way im so sad. all my senior friends are leaving me!!! David is going to the citadel in charleston. Justin is going to college up in kentucky. Stuart is moving. i mean me and him never really talk, but its sad, because ive known him a long long time. since middle school. Recently ive been so confused. one day will be really good, and the next really bad. its like im a different person than i used to be. since last summer ive drifted away from Church. but the church i go to youth group at have really helped me and i feel like they have a big influence on me. because they do. The church i used to go to, yeah i love it there, but its all like a popularity contest. if you're not friends with the "cool" people then you are a nobody. at that church i tried to be friends with everyone, the what they call themselves "cool" people and then the average kids like me, and even the outcasts. i guess you could say im easy to get along with. i love making friends of all kinds. its always been that way. i dont think one person is any different from another. no one should be outcasted. we should all be considered equal. why cant everyone think and see that? God sees us all as equals. why cant everyone else? well back to my point, the church i went to i practically grew up in. most of my grandparents friends go there and my aunts and uncles and some cousins go there too. its like a family church. everyone is related somehow. you would think that kind of church would be the best out there. but in the youth group, theres a lot of girls in particular who gang up on me, not litterally, but they always talk about me in one way shape or form. one problem is, 2 summers ago this guy Robbie who is a member at pisgah, invited his girlfriend to come...well actually katie got her to come then this chick and robbie started dating, but that isnt the point! ..anyways...this girl started coming to church, and at first she seemed real nice, talked to me some, tryed making friends, but after a while she started looking down on me. there are a few people in youth, who you could say dont have very many friends. well people like that i like talking to before all the popular people, because i was in their shoes at one point...and i know how it feel to be the outcast. so since i talked to those people , the other kids started talking bad about me and me and this kelly girl argued. she wouldnt ever stop talkin smack. and i usually keep to myself when that happens and try to see where things go, and not show any emotion about it. well when we went to Atlanta with youth last summer, it was the same thing again. she talked bad about me and everything else. and it just irked me. extremly. so..that church is always giving me emotional enstablement problems. so i started going to calvary chapel of lexington. The youth pastors are extremly welcoming and nice! and they make me feel like im wanting for a change. its pretty rad. and i feel like my spiritual self is showing through. its the better side of me. it makes me feel better about myself,my family, just everything. Learning the teachings of God has made me a much better person. everything i do...i stop and think..what would Jesus do, and what would he want me to do?... Last night at youth group, we were in small group talking about authority and how sometimes authority from other people could go against the judgement of the Lord. and then we were talking about how when parents set rules, they only do it to protect you, and to keep you out of trouble. then we got into the discussion about how you shouldn't do things to harm yourself or others. we were talking about the whole drugs and alcohol thing. and how they harm you so much and the things it says in the bible about drinking and doing drugs. i was getting into the discussion good and so was Kelsey, then Megan speaks up and says, well my parents dont care what i do and i can do what i want. then , ok we were discussing this with the youth pastors wife, who is a very spiratual person, and is one of the people who influences me the most. THEN Megan says "well i got wasted last weekend and my parents dont care" ...man u tell me about how my face looked...i was like....u didnt just say that..i cant believe it...i mean i thought she was different...and man...i was sooo stunned...after that we were talking about the whole not having sex before you get married thing...and i dont believe in sex before marriage, its just how my morals are. well after that we went outside to play volleyball and i was at petes car with megan talking to him..and she pulls out a cigarrette and starts smoking..i left from there...i couldnt believe her. i was so ticked off. yesterday was a little emotional before youth group. i was just sitting down thinking about stuff, and i was looking at the date. 4 months. its been for whole months since Mr. Keith passed...i mean i barely knew him...and it has effected me sooo much. i just..i started to feel tears running down my face again. it hurts when i cry. ever since he has died...i havent been able to cry much unless its been something very horrible. then i was talking to my friend Josh last night, he told me his boss is at in the hospital. he has cancer of the pancreas. i wanted to just hug Josh...he seemed so sad...i hate seeing him so sad...i adore him..hes a lil older...21...but hes a big influence on me. i told him i was sorry and that i luv him...and id pray for his boss and the family and Josh also. its been a hard time...but itll all be ok. i have people who believe in me. i have faith in God! I hope i can see Josh soon. Well people leave some comments so i know im loved!!!! love all of y'all equally dustin- let me know about the beach in july and if u can come!! luv ya! paige...leave a comment we havent talked in a long time!!!! Love Always God Bless, Amber Simons | | Monday, May 17th, 2004 | | 1:28 pm |
hey long time no type
its been WEEKS!!! its been a busy few weeks...im not going to graduation now...b/c of stupid crap! dustin knows what im talkin about...and ummm...me and Chad are going through half way fights. but its gonna be ok. me and chris are doing really good. he lives in hilton head so its hard...we are sorta dating but im not exactly sure as of right now...i need to figure it out lol. i get to see him soon. his birthday is next friday. so give me some ideas of what to get mr. sexi boy...lol hes so adorable..and Paige im sure ur gonna ask who he is so just im me lol bye people! Amber | | Friday, May 7th, 2004 | | 1:08 pm |
complication
things have been a bit complecated. Monday justin and heather broke up. he hurt her so bad- i wish i could hurt him...arggg lol...but me and heather will always be best friends. guys are such jerks. yesterday lance told me if i didnt "do stuff" with him that we couldnt talk anymore. so i told him goodbye. i told him he wasnt worth crap. so he's GONE. thank God! lol. me megan and heather are going to the mall tomorrow and doing something around town tonight. i cant wait. we so need to hang out again!! itll be slammin and jammin! lol ..paige we need to get 2gether sumtime! i hope u and amanda get along soon again. i really hope this whole guy thing will fly over with time. i cant stand guys sometimes! lol..i havent talked to dustin in a while! i miss him...im seeing him in a few weeks tho!!! hes coming intown for graduation. maybe we can all get together somewhere. ill see and ill talk to him..ill make a point to call him this weekend , well ttyl! bye bye!!!! Amber | | Wednesday, May 5th, 2004 | | 7:00 pm |
long time no type
this whole week ive been at the gym. im really stressing! but ill get better. i cant wait til saturday. im going to the mall with heather. ill explain all the crap that happened later. i like tony i think..hes a great guy...man..but ill hang in there,love yall! goodnite! amber | | Sunday, May 2nd, 2004 | | 3:53 pm |
rob
rob if u read this ...ur "lake" story was funny! omg soooo funny!!!! | | 3:47 pm |
mixed emotions...
i feel sooo weird! im ALL gittery!! i wanna see aaron...or at least talk to him...i like him and im not sure why. its probually b/c he's so sweet to me...i feel the best when talking to him. he's absolutly...my type...it feels like the real deal! its sooo confusing..i wish he would call me!!!! oh well...ill see him monday maybe...hopefully...or tonight...but i honestly doubt thatll happen! well yeah...i like him and it feels all weird!! but ya know...ill let things take their course...and see where they go..hopefully me and him will be together...but i cant jinx that...man oh man i like him... HE GIVES ME BUTTERFLIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Amber | | 1:20 am |
Cheerful...sooo happy again!
omg omg omg omg omg...ok at 11 this guy whos friends with my friend IMed me...we hit it off well..he called me...and i dunno wat it is...i get butterflies in my tummy when i talk to him. we talked from 12-2...omg im sooo happy again..and i dunno why. he wants for us to do something sumtime. he goes to tech for 2nd block...i wanna see him! lol..he's just so sweet. i feel like im my happy self again! if me and him get together...i know ill never be sad again...awwwwwwwwwww im so gittery and smiling so much!!!!! well im goin to dream land to have happy dreams now..aww amber feels happy!!! *smiley* amber, very happy amber! | | Friday, April 30th, 2004 | | 7:25 pm |
confusion...utter confusion..
i hate being sooo confused! i mean..right now im not sad or depressed or happy or sad. just so confused. i want someone by me to let me know itll all be ok. i want someone who will love me and who will always look at me and see a certain thing...take me for me. guys are so cruel. i just want one who cares. only someone..just someone...im so alone...*tear* Amber | | 1:01 pm |
upset
why me? i cant stand myself sometime. and i hate it all. i like justin. and i dont understand why. i have no chance. he is moving to kentucky for college next year. thats partially why im sad.he doesnt know i think of him as more than a friend. and he cant know. that would make me look like a nuscence. monday cant get here fast enough. i want to loose this weight. im so fat. i hate my body. im trying to be positive but theres so many pple bashing me!!!! errrr amber | | Wednesday, April 28th, 2004 | | 1:33 pm |
things...get better...with time!
today wasnt so great either. but im not sad. just sick. i went to bed at 8pm last night. i felt like cud. took this medicane...and yeah...i went to sleep....nick didnt call me back. oh well...if he wants to talk he'll call! im looking forward to summer! maybe kyle can call me then. i hope he graduates. and i hope i can go to the graduation...altho he prob wont want me there! but i hope we can be friends again. the whole dating thing...i cant say...b/c its too far ahead..and i cant stand planning! lol..i sorta like nick...BUT we dont know eachother well. so i dont know. i like lance a lot..he lives too far away tho. i think being single is the way to go for now. until a prince in shiny armor comes and sweeps me offa my feet. the whole chris thing im still pissed about. i want HIM to tell me. he needs to. until then ill be mad at him. dusitn is a great friend...ut we're bother goin threw crap..its hard stuff...and paige is the best...a great friend...honestly!!! Amber | | Tuesday, April 27th, 2004 | | 5:45 pm |
lonely...
depressed. lonely. tired. sick. coughing. missing love. single. enough said. LONELY!!!!!!! | | Sunday, April 25th, 2004 | | 9:10 am |
forgot 1 thing...
i forgot one thing! Paige and Amanda- thanks for everything! yall are the best!!! DUSTIN~~~~ hey!!! thanks for STILL being my best friend!!! i still love u! good luck with u and kelly....and remember what i told u...stay with her..or ill spank u!(u better not think wrong of that one lol) Best Friends for Life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u better come see me at the beach this summer! i miss u!!!! luv ya babe! |
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